Empty Belly

TUMMIES!!
Very round and many tummies.
I look down at mine, and think…this is not what I really asked for, not in this way. I asked for a full tummy.

I have a few favorite blog-sites that I visit and most of them had beautiful round bellies, awaiting the gift of life.

My life remains a Question?
And in the questioning heart-ache(well, it’s faint now-adays…a lot fainter) I am thankful for no lunch-boxes to fill, no homework to check, just another CSI-series coming up to watch soon.
No blood sweat and tears in that.

And then my love.
My love is tainted….and scarred.
I fight and continuously encourage myself in self-talk that he does love and will go over to action, but….BUT…..?????

Maybe that’s why my belly is not filled….ahhh…maybe because my lesson is patience??? And with those little tiny creatures you need patience…perfect undefiled….otherwise they too become scarred!

So I must WAIT!!!
I am late on my time-line of life, but in the Hand of God…I MUST WAIT!!!

My time-line compared to pears on Facebook, long not seen, met or caught up with, are far ahead in happiness, in contentment and hope. For me, I have taken the stance of looking content from the outside.
My outside shines beautifully now. Perfectly embalmed and in control. That’s all that I have control over. My inside has gone slightly stale, perhaps half dead already. The numbness kills the pain. When I don’t feel, I don’t cry anymore. That’s how I cope. That’s how I remain not being scraped off the kitchen floor from time to time.

Nothing I do, can change what I want, because they tell me, maybe I would not have coped. Maybe this is who I should be happy to be. Disconnected from a true presence of love. Only available at random, but quite harmonious intervals, and not feel the need NO MORE to give birth to life. It is too late now!

My peace has been made.
Everyday is another day closer to the end!
Selah!

This is mainly a blog for cats!!!

....uhmmmm??....cat-lovers are also welcomme...purrrr.

Well...I suppose because Frida Kahlo was a cat-lover aswell,(I hope she was!!!?because I am named after herrr...!)

...mmmm...well O.K then!!! Anyone that loves art, including artist, arti-farties ect are also welcome! But only because Frida was an artist and I bear her resembelance, arghh, I mean her name and creative notions.

BUT!!! ...just for incase you got lost in translation...I AM A CAT!!!! with a neeed for creative journaling about: Mainly ME and then a little bit about my opinion of Art.

Purrfect! LOve Ya All!!